Ann's Journal

I love Adam
So I havent written in a while but im writing now because ADam has myspace and live journal. So i've been at mville for a few months and I think adam is my hero. I love my roomate allison she puts up with all my shit and problems. Anyways im mad bored watchin beavis and butthead do america. Im trying to wake up early tomo so that can run and do work! alright im out peaccce

Current Mood: chipper

Rest of Spring Break
So Monday I had to work an extra shift and right afterwards Marina and Eric came over we watched TV and ate mad chocolate haha! We ended up kinda watching the Hendersons with the giant animal it was so cute! But Marina said it made her sad so then we watched QVC that was selling Sissix which is this really expensive thing we sell at AC Moore which cost hundred of dollars and Marina and I never knew what it was turns out "Sissix" was this weird machine that cut out letters of this shape that you made it was totally ridiculous. Anyways so I chilled out Tuesday because I worked agian, and on Wednesday me and Lauren Sulli and Racheli, and Christina D hung out at Lauren's house we danced to old songs tried going to Warren G (even though his last name is F's) house but it was cancelled so we passed by it on our way to deciding to go to another party that was in the woods and decided not to go at all because it was muddy or something and then we tried making lauren's bro smoke altiods with us after he finished his toast with cinnamon. Then Thursday a few friends from Telemarketing and we all saddled up in 3 cars and drove to white plains to California Pizza Kitchen. TJ drove my car and it was a ridculous drive. So we had a good time. But on the way back we all had to pee really badly and the car ride was really long let me tell you! So then I met up with andy and colin and I watdhed them drink and kinda watched a scary movie but i tried stallin. Then i went to Jamie's and got crunked and had an awesome time met up with Maddster. Then on Saturday me and Alibee went to cafe castiglia watched Dennis, Ivan, and Brynne play and then got some cake batter ice cream whichw as awesome and then i went home and did mad work. Okay so then Easter was chill went to church ate some food and did alotta HW. Okay I gg beyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Current Mood: happy

Hmm
So lets see tonight wat did i dooo. I got home from work took a shower. Then me and Nikki chilled and went to Vikki H's house. Pretty chill night nothing too exciting. I saw Andrew T. and matt perone whom which i have not seen in a while along with Anthony C. Yeah so I hope that this Spring Break will be promising...we'll see. Alright im going to eat byebye
SOmeone's gotta post because i've been keeping up!

This week has been ehhh. Lets see I got into FORDHAM!!! And Sex education is cool! I advocate it all the way!! Yeah man its my senior freakin thesis its not hard i mean 8 pages is attainable i did it in 2 days. Its not too difficult but more tedious. However it has upped my sex drive as Randy Engel this phsyco guy thinks that talking about sex makes people want to have sex...not true!
Alright gg byebye

The wonderful thing called work.
I hate AC Moore. Mainly because of that stupid girl that is mean to me. Anyways I realized that I dont think I can handle 8 hour shifts. Tis too long for a gal like me and the conditions I'm under. Plus my feet hurt sooo much because I have to freakin stand in one spot for hours at a time. I'm not sure what's worse sitting for hours or standing. Anyways I saw Janine! Janine was one of the bosses from Telemarketing!!! It was a touching moment. She said that she missed me and so does everyone else...which made me feel great considering i dont like ac moore ha ha. Righhht Right so I finnally finished this volunteer work project that I thought was going to take me hours to do, but my family ended up helping me stuff these candy bags with favors for the Support- Connection's Gala. I stuffed a zillion envelopes on Friday for a good hour and a half. 'Tis fun I like volunteering! I got this letter in the mail from FUJI Film apparently i never picked up some film that i developed and they are holding it hostage until i send money? I dunno man but I usually pick up my film cause of the whole rave on scrapbooking....anyways My senior thesis rough is due this week. I gotta start it. I was going to but I'm rewriting my notes. I have until friday so I'll start writing it on tuesday maybe like 2 to 3 pages a day. Alright I gotta a busy day tomo b/w FBLA, Guitar, and WORK!
Im bizzzouncing
Ann

Current Mood: tired

So I figured it was time for an update
Anyways tonight was pretty good I saw Rahzel in concert at Lakeland and he was awesome...although he was a little preacherish to us. It kinda bothered me because he kept on preaching and not doing preforming but then agian when he did do songs they were effing awsome! I loved them! Anyways after Rahzel I went over to Christina D's house with Lauren and Denise and we chilled talked about crazy things and then Ivan and Chris S. rolled by which is always much fun...and then like the shady mofo i am i bounced because of other prior engagements. But its okay cause i had a madddddddd good time and re found my love for hip hop yooo! Ya heard?! Aiggggght im BIZZZOUNCING!

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Jay Z- Dirt off ya shouldas

The Great New Years
Ah yes! So New Years I was supposed to go to Blake's have a lotta fun and crash at someone's house. However Mrs. Quinn talked to my mom and told her we were all sleeping over his house so basically my mom got all pissed and told me i couldnt go out! Ha!!! How nice mother!!!! So anyways I had gone to the mall did some shopping, and got a hair cut! I took off an inch and a half. It nothing new because the lady didnt speak English and my main hair stylist Jimmy was booked solid. So yes after my hair cut I met with Dave. We went to little sorrentos got a nice pizza, I saw Craig :)! Ha ha he has a new hair style it looks good! Right so after that Dave took me to Sparkle Lake we chilled there for a bit and then I called Madie to see if I could have stopped by with him, but my mom called flipping out. So Dave met my parents event though I told him it was soooo not nesscary but he insisted. ( How crazy is that?!) Anyways so he met the Fam and Adam my new brother in law! And after i had dinner with the family he came over agian because I had gotten introuble with the Blake thing so we chilled for a bit and now Im home and tired. Alright Ttyl ! Ann

Current Mood: content

Funnnnn Nights
Okay so I got my first sale on Friday!! :) Yay! But that night before some person threw a rock at my side view mirror! :O! It was scary but whatever later that night I went to Ali's house and chilled. Today I woke up madd late for work but got there on time. I did a little customer service and then register and eventually my fav manager Greg let me stock stuff and do displays. Then EB gave me a Christmas present which consisted of Godiva chocolates, a book, CD, and a 15 dollar gift certificate to FYE. It was really sweet of him. So I got back from work Jim and Lauren wanted to chill so I took a shower and around 8ish I picked up Lauren from Aileen's how and we went to Misha T's house. Gosh Misha is sooo hot!! I want to get with him lol. It took me so long to find his house though! Yes so I had nice chats with Rob Flanz the "teen dream" ha ha and P- Easy lol. Pez was actually being really nice and when he left he kissed me and Lauren's hand. Hmm too gentlemen like. Yeah so there was much drama when EB got into a fight with Robinson and then Dave Otero dropped a forty all over the floor and wouldnt clean it up. That was so messed up so me and the girls tried helping Misha clean up. I swept and vaccumed once the beer was cleaned up. He basically kicked everyone except for me and lauren and we had nice chat with him. He's a nice kid. Alright so I'm out for tonight peacccccccce :P

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Sheryl Crow

Tonight was a great Mass. Had much fun Adam joined us and we had some funny moments when we stood up by mistake when we werent supposed to, and the new rendition of the Last Dinner. Today me and my sis went to the mall did last minute shopping had some fun. I stopped by AC Moore because of the Holiday Party and they gave me a present for being their Customer Service bitch. After that I talked to Anthony this guy that I met a few days ago. He seems really nice and polite too. I'm going to hang out with him this weekend so we'll see what happens.
Here's this week's recap:
Monday: I slept in late, then went to work. After work was supposed to go shopping with Matt R, but ended up going over Shaun's house and chilled with him and Eric

Tuesday: Also woke up late, read, started a puzzle, tried to finish my scrap book. Then I cashed in some coins at the Coin Star at Food Emporium ($14.36) bought this Danish Ring or Russian Cake type deal brought it over to Tele and they asked me to stay because we were having our holiday party. TJ offered to call in and say he was my dad so I wouldnt have to go to AC Moore, but I felt guilty. Then Eric called me up and I met up with him and Pez to finish up his last minute shopping. I went to work shortly after that and saw Jimmy G, Misha T, and Judy. Talked to Jim for a bit and he invited me to hang out but I got outta work like 11.30 it was terribly late for AC Moore but whatever. So I'll probably chill with him sometime soon. And then I talked to Anthony for a bit.

This morning I took a break and decided not to take the SATS shhhh! Dont tell AC Moore, I went into work at 1 because I had planned on taking them but I was like ehh fuck it I'm sleeping in. I go in do the work thing, however I didnt do Cashier so I was sooo happy! I did returns (aka walking around with merchandise in your hands making belive you are actually putting it away when in reality you are doing eye shopping for yourself). Right so I was bored and was looking at the HELLO KITTY section and had the urge to clean it up so I attempted it but every so often I'd get this really gross sticky crap that obviously some little fucker had put all over the displays making half the merchandise stickky to the touch. After work I bought some things and Alek called me so I met up with him and Jack at this Cafe next door to Carvel and Golden House Chinese Resturant. I saw the Guitar Club preform and Jose came too so we could chill. Jose and I stayed for an hour or so and got some ice cream and ate it in my car and just chatted for a bit. Afterwards I met up with Ali and we went Christmas shopping together! We had much fun and chatted alot. We decided it was time for another Starbuck Session so maybe for her birthday I'll take her there. Alright well I'm outta here peaccccccccce

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Alll I want to fuckin do is cancel my fuckin SATS those stupid fuckin basterd. The line is fuckin busy! They fuckin canceled it because of snow now i want to cancel and not take that stupid fuckin test! FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OKay Im sorry im just really angry :)

And baby when you care, then I will be there by your side.....
Yessssum....So I got back from work at 8.30 from Telemarketing and make not one sale. It really depresses me. Chris and Neil made fun of me saying that I such a bad TR and that I should just quit. Don't ask me why but I was about to cry when they said that. I mean wtf man its been my first week and I hate having to force people to buy this shit over the phone. I admit its a dang good program but no one wants to listen because Im a telemarketer. I mean the people should be getting pissed at the companies not me. They are the ones who hire us to sell their stupid fuckin shit. Anyways Im hoping I get a sale soon. It gives me a drive to do better. I have to cash another check so that I can buy the rest of my presents. I have to return so much stuff its tear'able. Ha ha I miss Mike I havent been walking by his locker lately at all so today I did...he's so sweet.:) Right Mad?! So I just realized i was supposed to go to Starbucks with AJ tonight but I forgot to bring my cell, so meh! Gosh Darn it I have so much more shopping to do! I really like that cute duck I got Alek its sooo adorable! I shoulda gotten Madster a penguin one but I only have ducks so "blarg" Wow man I'm gunna hurt Adam. He's back and Im glad he is I missed him and now Lucy is really happy. But he told Chris Long I thought he was cute and wanted to date him! I was like Adam wtf I just thought he was cute thats all why did you do that. And he said he was just looking out for me and said that Chris wanted me to call him, but Im def not going to especaially because Chris thinks I sweat him now when i dont! Sheesh I said he was cute is athat a crime. I think ducks are cute too HA HA Alright im out babes
Ann

Current Mood: tired

Wow so I've been sick this past week coughing up lungs, fevers, aches, and pains. It was great I missed so much school and barely had to make up any work at all. So Friday was senior cut day. I didnt go to school obviously. I went to the mall with madie and had a nice talk Jared! Man we love that kid he's too funny. So I got 2 presents and have to return one of them already. I missed my ACTS because I went in to work by mistake. So i worked for my normal shift and had an awsome time. I came home and did crafts not noticing that i had 5 missed calls from Jose, Matt R, Mike T, Sebastian and EB. So I could have had many potential plans however I was doing crafts and feeling really lethargic. Meh whatevas theres always monday. Work was weird Im beginning to not like telemarketing as much as i used to because Im actually getting hung up not....something that never really happened over the summer. I must admit there are alottttta cuties that work there. Today was snowing however AC Moore was still freakin open. What pyshco customers we have. Bascally in the morning I had to do customer service cause it was dummmm crazy. Then the rest of the day me, chris, jill, and edison unwrapped "breaddough" Ornaments. Then me and chris had a semi skittle fight in the break room, it was quite funny half the skittles were on the floor none of them were ingested by anyone of us. So now im home and finsihed the rest of my crafts and none of my work so i shall do that
Peaccce

Ugh!
Today we had an early dismissal because of the forecasts of snow. As soon as I got home I went to AC Moore to pick up my working papers and drove straight to Telemarketing. I have my job back but I guess i forgot that i hadnt been there in a while during the day so i just walked in and then the secratary stopped me as if i was a criminal and was like where are you going, you just wait a second here in front of the desk. And I was like wow okay and she was like what are you heere for and i replied I here to talk to Oma I just spoke with her on the phone and she told me to come here with my working papers or if Anthony's here too even Wallace. And then she asked " Who are you?" I said "Ann Marie, I worked here before" and then she felt somewhat dumb because she was like ooo ok. Yes so i go in there and it was so weird I do miss it but I see Im afriad they'll fire me. Thats my biggest fear. Because they can set quotas...at ac moore u can suck at being a cashier but they have no real reason to fire you for that ya know? Unless ur over by alot! I like the discounts too at AC Moore. I'm plagued I feel like ahhh. On a good note I saw my darling Jose! I missed him so much. I missed his nice smelling cologne too. Tomorrow he claims we'll go out on our Burger King escapade but we'll see what the weather holds in store for us. Me and Madster went to pick up the one hour photo pics and we both lovvve Aleck. Anyways we did have one good pic of us and we figured out waht the ad will say. I also went to starbucks and got a Caramel Macciato. Later on tonight though charlie called me and asked me if i wanted to take a walk to his house with Channa and him to watch a movie....weird right in a snow storm plus the fact that we havent hung out with Channa in a looong time. But anyways my mom wouldnt let me so they walked over to my house and we talked for the whole time caught up...gossiped, found out alot of new and old things. It was cool. No SATS tomo!!! yay! I get to work instead! Btw AC Moore called me in to work tonight
I was like are u kidding me...another thing telemarketing rarely asks u to go into work when u dont need to. Saturdays are optional but if u say that you cant work saturdays they'll never ask. Alright I'm tired and signing off peacce.

Current Mood: crappy

I seemed to forgot to mention my confrontation with Sara aka "Sarrr" from Clarkstown South. She's like my best friend! She's still dating Adam H. ha ha. ANyways she was her normal fake self. Nothing to different except she wasnt as outgoing...hmmm weird. Alright so today was a big day for me. First I woke up cleaned my room. Then I cleaned my car( needless to say it still isnt as clean as i want it to be) Took a nice shower and shaved too! Then I got ready Puff called me to chill but I forgot to meet up with him because I went to Madies to drop off some zeppoles. I chatted with her bros about suicidal pants and Sebby. Then I went to HillTop to fill my tank ...it only took 12 dollars...weird. Yes so as I was filling my tank Jimmy G called my cell to see what I was doing. So I went over his house said hello and spent the rest of the time talking to his dad about school and we took this simulation test about something that was kinda cool. Then we started to talk about time and what if there was an expiration date on your life and then I told him about the death clock and i freaked him out. So he went to the site and was freaking out still and found out that he has 19 years to live, even though i told him that its just an estimation and it doesnt really mattter. So basically its all my fault that Jim's dad is freaking out about having a fake "19" years to live. So during that whole fiasco Pez stopped by and once Jim got his dad to not freak out Jim Pez and I smoked a blunt and drank some forties and talked about virgins. ha ha (j/k) well we really did talk about virgins and the new crazy flavors of snapple. I stayed there for a bit even though i was supposed to go visit my freind at work. So they escorted me to the car because it was dark and i was freaked out and I went home ate and then went to starbucks with my girlies and Blake. I saw John Ryan there with his girlfriend and this realllllly cute guy there too. I must ask John if he was single cause he was FINNEee yes so we went to starbucks chilled for a bit....and then I went to ac moore to buy some crafts to relax me thiss break or whenever. ANd now Im here updating...Im debating whether or not I should go to Jackie Kelms get together that starts at 11.30. Im not sure, im kinda tired. Today jose GRADUATED!!! Im so excited to see ma baby!!!! I miss him sooo much.
Alright gg ttyl

Current Mood: happy

So this past weekend i went to baltimore with FBLA. It was awsome. The first night we just chilled and what not I met Boyle and my fav-Tuchman from carmel. They were pretty cool. For some reason me and Boyle volunteered for every workshop that we went to... it was quite fun. So the second night I went to the dance were I "won a date" with one of our state officers. I won Dan Fisher (although I kinda wanted to win Jeff S and Matt R because they were both single.) So yes I had my dance with him and then in the morning I had breakfast with him along with Jamie and Lauren who also won dates. It was fun getting chummy chummy with them. I think Jeff is my soulmate because we love the same songs and i told him that too, but he just laughed HAHA. Yeah so that night was pretty fun I also met this guy named Chris from Maryland he was chilled we were in each others group for the Egg Dropping Contest. The last night I got really sick and stayed in I could barely stomach anyfood that whole day it was terrible. All around good trip ( minus all the tension) Anyways Im really excited to see my love Jose...hes graduating tomo. Im gunna go to him and CHris Longs graduation party. Hopefully it will be fun. Well im off to nap before I go to work 6-10...afterwards im stopping by ali's house do make a year book page....sounds like tons of fun.
GG ciao!

Current Mood: anxious

"One can teach the other what she doesn't know and still the other fills a place inside he never knew had to grow." No Doubt

Yesterday night was Donkey Basketball! I recruited many LCBMS teachers to play. One in particular Mr. Saldicco my old tech teacher that I was in love with. Dan told me that he didn't remember me but I was his first class and gave him a Christmas present and not only that he bought me a present in return. How could he not remember me! So before the game I thanked all the teachers for helping us out and I had a long chat with Saldicco and he said that he defintaly remembered me and wouldnt have done it if anyone else asked. So I was really glad. I love it when teachers remember who I am dont ask why Im a real dork! So yes me dan and paul did refreshments and while we were doing it a donkey came walking out the gym! I was freaking out! Sam Federico got badly hurt it was 'tear'able. Yes so then around 9 Andy and I met up and he met Stewie also. (my whip) So we hung otu for a bit even though I held him from going back early even though he should have left earlier, but it was worth it. We went to Van Cort and parked on top of the hill. We talked for a bit the usual looked at the weird moon. And then this creepy creepy black van slowly circles the parking lot and kinda stops behind us and the slowly leaves circles and we fuckin jetted out of that lot. It was soooo creepy! So today I went to the Open House of Manhattenville. It was cute my mom got us lost even though (God Forgive me) she was so dumb and took 8W after I was like mom take 8E not this exit and then i was like mom the hell are you doing and she said o gosh we made a mistake. And i just got pissed and i was like no ur dumb and dont listen to me when i say take 8 fuckin E not West!!! ( exlcude any curses or rude comments just a loud voice) I dunno it was bad she was so annoying and i feel bad for saying it but she was. I know im over reacting I just couldnt take it she was walking really slow and i wanted to hear what the tour lady was saying and she told my dad that i was being when i was like omg how the hell was i supposed to know where shit was if i couldnt hear a fucking thing the girl was saying since i was in the back. Anyways hopefully tomorrow gets better. Later tonight I went to Starbucks with Allison and just chatted for a bit. I was nice. And now im finnally updating.
Goodnight

Current Mood: blah

In conclusion today just sucked and I dont know why I care or even bother. Today I had to dress up for my speech. For the first time I was actually nervous. I don't know why. The phone/ new intercom kept on ringing during my speech. I said 4 "Ya Know"'s. My mom made zeppoles...well thats not really their name its sfingi. Anyway the whole class ate them and I had like maybe 1 in total. Me and Mike got into a fight because I fuck around way to much. My birthday is tommorw. I had a game againest Panas and Fallo didnt even play me once.My mom wont leave me alone. I feel I should get a car for my birthday because I'll play 3,000 dollars of it and I was so embarrased because all of my Panas friends saw how Fallo didnt even play me once out of the 4 games we played. So I feel like a big fat loser. Antonella is a jerk and made fun of the way I say like a lot so I too disgusted by her presence to sit by her that I left the dinner table. Hence why I'm updating. Im not even that hungry. I think im too angry or whatever you want to call it to be hungry. I should be angry more often.

Current Mood: aggravated

Okay my journals are a soap opera. I make them that way. They do have truth in it, but sometimes i make it something its not. Shall I go own about my last real entry? Maybe I should, maybe I shouldnt. or maybe Ill just talk to someone and explain it better.

*Josh*
At that moment I knew that I had to be with him. I just couldn’t escape him no matter how hard I tried, so I decided to succumb to him. I could never fully understand why I always went back to him, but that’s all I know how to do. I put my arms around his neck gently and stared into his eyes, those hypnotic eyes. He smiled at me warmly and kissed my lips as he wrapped his arms around my waist, and I whispered to him, “I love you.”

He took a step back in surprise that I had said that to him. His faced seemed relieved and he jovially picked my body up and twirled me. “I’ve been waiting to hear those words from you for so long” he said as he kissed my forehead. “I love you so much! I can’t even begin to describe how much I love you.”

I surprisingly felt relieved to be in his arms and yet all I could think of was how I am going to tell Jonah. Later that night I crept out of Josh’s arms. I drove to Jonah’s and as I was at his door, it felt too much like home. I stood in his doorway and we looked at each other. I didn’t know how to tell him I was going back to Josh. I didn’t know how to because deep down I didn’t want to tell him. I felt like I had been defeated again going back to him like I always had. Then he softly whispered to me, “I’ve missed you.” Oh please tell me why I was going back to Josh please tell me why, because at that moment I wanted Jonah to hold me in his arms and just go back to the way things used to be. I remember the first time he told me he loved me. We were walking in the park and rain started to pour down on us. I loved getting caught in the rain. The way the water felt on my body as it soaked my clothes. We were running back to my house we’re standing the in doorway like we are now except we are panting with the excitement of having the rain run through our bodies and he pushes my wet hair away from my face. He kisses my lips tenderly and said “I love you.” It was the perfect moment.

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